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[26 Nov 2009|06:06am]


Angela Hartlin's memoir, FOREVER MARKED: A Dermatillomania Diary has finally been released! Please join her Facebook Fan page to spread word about this skin picking disorder along with her experiences with it.

People with this disorder have traits of Body Dysmorphic Disorder and usually suffer from depression. It is an Impulse Control Disorder that is fueled by high levels of anxiety. The first few pages can be previewed at the Lulu.com site, which includes a better definition of Dermatillomania.

Even if you do not have Facebook, the prices are listed there for Canadian, American, and International buyers. If you do, please spread the word of the fan page to everyone on your friend's list, even if you have to tell them that you're spreading the word for a friend! We need to raise awareness about this silent disorder and help break the stigma on mental health in general. You never know who is suffering in isolation from having this condition.

Please e-mail forever.markedATyahoo.ca if you want to purchase from Angela directly; she offers a lower shipping price than Lulu.com does. Include the country that you live in and she can send you a quote. She ships the day she gets a payment (or the day after), then sends an e-mail to confirm that it was sent.

Thank you. <3


[06 Apr 2009|01:30am]

People with Dissociation, or DP/DR might find this thing interesting.....Collapse )
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disorders [14 Aug 2008|02:22pm]

Hi my names Lily, I'm 18 and I have been clinically diagnosed with:

General Anxiety
Social Anxiety
Separation Anxiety
Obsessive Compulsive Disorder and Scrupulosity

I'm would really like to talk to someone who has all or most of these disorders. I feel really alone because my parents don't have any of them.

Thanks xoxo
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bi-polar + fibromyalgia [14 Aug 2008|08:10pm]

hay my name is jade im 21 years old, i live in the UK in bournemouth.
i have had a chronic pain condition for 7 years which was diegnosed as fibromyalgia about a year ago, for that condition i have been on many drugs such as:

remadine forte
dihydracodeine (df118s)
and no clonazepam.

i also suffer from insomnia because of my pain, but also because i am manic so i need less sleep
because i sleep like 3 hours a night i hear voices and see things, i have an imaginary friend called william.

for my bi-polar i am on floxatine, clonazepam and soon lithium.

i also self harm for when im in pain and need a destraction but also because i get bored and find the blood pretty to look at.

the weirdest things i have done is sleepwalk to the park, steel a bus and various other experiments i think would benifit mankind, like my one week of drinking dark liquid, a drink me and my friends made made out of
coke concentrate
red bull
100+ tablets of caffeine tabs
doctor pepper
mix together and drink.
i drank 500mls a day for a week
i had chronic dyorea and could not sleep for a few days, now i know how stupid that was because that much caffeine can kill you, but im just saying these are the kinds of things manic ppl do

pls dont be afraid to talk to me im really a nice normal person.. most of the time :D
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can i be a schizoid and a narcissist? [31 Jul 2008|11:50am]

is it possible to be a schizoid as well as suffer (i don't mean suffer
but it's the only word that makes sense here) from narcissistic
personality disorder.

it's because i identify with a lot of symptoms of narcissistic
pers...... and even though some of the symptoms crossover to the
schizoid, i also identify with the ones that don't.

if you're thinking i'm probably a narcissist and not a schizoid, that
just ain't true. with the schizoid diagnosis, i identify with every
single thing that's written about it, and if someone wanted to
'understand' me, i'd go tell them to read the wikipedia entry for

i think it must be possible to be schizoidal narcissist because the
disorders don't seem to contradict one another, and probably because
the human condition is complex enough to accommodate the two and maybe
even more.
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friendships and an armada of other ships [04 Jul 2008|11:14pm]

I think my tendency to blog and create 'virtual relationships' comes from the fact that I'm very uncomfortable with the kind of friendships I create (or for that matter anyone else creates) in real life. The uncomfortableness comes from my idea of what friendships should be: in that each person should give each other enough room to exercise their freedom whilst also not imposing any emotional or physical bounds on the friendship, so each person in the friendship is not responsible for the other nor should either one be expected to behave in a certain manner in any given situation. So I guess what I'm trying to get at is that there should be unlimited freedom in friendships and for that matter all relationships. But I guess having said all this, this is probably a counter-definition to what friendships and relationships are all about, and I have to tell you, I don't understand interpersonal relationships,.........and yes, I do have friends, only a couple, and we're really close, and yes again, the friendship handles the way I've described above. But I think from my friends perspective, they perceive the friendship as not very close and even though I consider them to be my best friends, I'm pretty certain it's not reciprocated.

The perks of being a schizoid.
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the me within me [04 Jul 2008|08:00pm]


I have always wondered about what is wrong with myself. And I do not want to tire you with my constant whining about the constant difficulties I face in life.

For the past couple of years, I've been scouring the internet, especially wikipedia, to find some psychological condition with which I could identify myself with. Having read upon myriad conditions, and having forced myself to try and identify with Asperger Syndrome, Schizophrenia, Bipolar  Disorder,  and many others, I've always ended up identifying with a few symptoms, but the rest to me have been non-present and rather alien.

I guess all I've ever really wanted was to identify with something so I could feel reassured that there was something 'wrong' with myself (I like to call it 'different') and not feel it was just because I am an idiot or some kind of jerk or  just emotionally cold. I've known from very early on I didn't feel the same things as other people nor did I understand certain behaviours like how to behave in social situations and so on, so I think it was natural and inevitable for me to go on this 'quest' of 'self-discovery' and search for some explanation or wonder if there were people out there who felt the same way I did.

That is, until a few months ago, I accidentally (out of curiosity) stumbled upon the wikipedia entry to Schizoid Personality Disorder, whilst I was reading about something else. I have a tendency to digress when reading a wikipedia entry, or even writing, like right now!. So I remember starting to read the entry, and as I read, tears started to trickle down my face. It felt that for the first time in my life there was something that made some sense, and there were people out there just like me, which meant that there were people that understood what I went through.

I honestly identified with all the 'symptoms' and what struck me the most was how accurately it was able to pinpoint my behaviour, the way I've mentioned it in the previous posts: my inability to portray what's inside outside, feeling as if I'm wearing some sort of cloak when I'm around other people, craving loneliness and so on. Another striking thing about the diagnosis was, and I've thought about this for years on end, how it was able to describe my inability to be decisive, and my believing and wanting of contradictory things. It's explained amazingly well how feelings and traits are divided into 'overt' and 'covert'. Overt tend to be the feelings and thoughts you portray and covert are the ones that are within and which people don't get to see. And for extra points, it was mentioned how Schizoid Personality Disorder correlated with INTP and INTJ on the Myers-Briggs Type Indicator and having taken the test a couple of times over the past year, I scored as INTJ once and as INTP the other.

It's taken me so long to write this blog entry for the sole reason that I am always very sceptical about psychological disorders because  a lot of the times they tend to be very vague and I think a large chunk of the population identify with  a few symptoms for each disorder,  because some of the symptoms always fall into the wide range of emotions humans experience.
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Intro post [07 May 2008|06:05pm]

Hi everyone, Thru Hell here. I was just diagnosed the an adjustment disorder. I really don't know how to handle it. For the past week or so, I have found it extremely hard to sleep and haven't really had an appetite.  It was triggered by a break with my boyfriend over a stupid fight we had. I went out of control and drank half a bottle of vodka. I did a lot of things that I don't remember that may have harmed my relationship and apparently told on of my friends I wanted to die and had taken sleeping pills. Uni Police came and got me and sent me to the hospital. It was a real eye-opening moment for me when I had to call my mother and tell her where I was.

I really don't know what to expect. I'm in counselling now, trying to figure out how to handle this disorder. I just need some not biased people to talk to.
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File a complaint against the ban and sole use of HFA inhalers [01 Apr 2008|08:00am]


For everyone who has problems with the new HFA inhalers -- PLEASE file a complaint with the Food and Drug Administration (FDA): http://www.fda.gov/opacom/backgrounders/complain.html  

They really do take these complaints seriously, but only if everyone who has had problems files a complaint.  I have heard from several people who have problems and I am one of them. I cannot take the new inhalers and once December comes...

If everyone files a complaint with the FDA, the issue will be recognized. Please pass this along to other people. This issue will not be brought into the public eye until thousands take a stand and demand that they lift the ban.

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Compulsive Skin Picking [12 Oct 2007|03:41am]

[ mood | sore ]

Below I have a link to a cause I created through Facebook. Many people with BDD and/or OCD, along with myself, suffer from compulsive skin picking. Not a lot of people are joining the cause and for the people who have joined, they do not recruit others to the cause. I have a goal of raising a stink about this and being heard so that we feel more free, not as ashamed.

Psychogenic/ Neurotic Excoriation:

- Psychogenic Excoriation (Compulsive Skin Picking)

We need to break the stigma and speak out for ourselves, to get the chance to communicate with people who understand us instead of wasting our time with people who will forever condemn us. Be well, take care, and know that there really really isn't an oncoming train from the light at the end of the tunnel.

For other sufferers there is a Livejournal group called csp_support, just to spread the word around. It would be so much appreciated if you joined, and absolutely phenomenal if you could recruit others to the cause. I want sufferers out there to know that they aren't alone.

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Special Release: Urine Testing Confirms Autism is Mercury Poisoning [01 Oct 2007|12:40am]

US Autism & Asperger Association, Inc.


For Immediate Release - October 1, 2007

Urine Testing Confirms Autism is Mercury Poisoning

WASHINGTON, DC – A new peer-reviewed scientific/medical case study confirms that many children with autistic spectrum disorders (ASDs) suffer from mercury poisoning. The new study, “A Prospective Study of Mercury Toxicity Biomarkers in Autistic Spectrum Disorders” by Mr. David A. Geier and Dr. Mark R. Geier has been published in the most recent issue of the Journal of Toxicology and Environmental Health, Part A (volume 70, issue 20, pgs 1723-1730).

This study utilized urinary porphyrin profile analysis (UPPA) to assess body-burden and physiological effects of mercury in children diagnosed with ASDs.

Using UPPA, Geier and Geier (2007) examined 71 children diagnosed with ASDs, neurotypical siblings, and general population controls. The researchers studied urinary porphyrin patterns using results reported both by the US Laboratory Corporation of America (LabCorp) and the French Laboratoire Philippe Auguste.

Their findings demonstrated that:
* Only the non-chelated patients diagnosed with ASDs had porphyrin patterns indicative of clinical mercury toxicity.
* Treating ASD diagnosed patients with chelating agents resulted in lower mercury-specific urinary porphyrins.
* The UPPA patterns reported were consistent between the two labs used.

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racing thoughts [12 Sep 2007|07:02am]

My mind never shuts off. I am always thinking. I find it hard to concentrate and I often have trouble sleeping. I know I have above average intelligence (I was in the National Honor Society and I have a 3.1 GPA in college. I took college classes at age 16). Yet I can't concentrate, I hardly studied while getting my undergrad, yet passed nearly every class but two.
I sometimes get very depressed. I have had thoughts of suicide for at least ten years. I have never been serious about it, but those thoughts nagged me. I also sometimes get giddy and impulsive. I find it hard to organize tasks, ideas, or anything. I have been fired twice for being scatterbrained and unmotivated. I feel that I am losing it.
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Psychologist Splitting. [21 Aug 2007|05:01am]

Who the fuck does that stupid bitch ass psychologist think she is, telling me that I am bringing my whole family down and destroying my life??? she doesn't know me, at all. She knows I have BPD, why would she say such things?? doesn't she know that, that would make me hate her fucking guts and never go back to her again??? Doesn't she know that saying shit like that to me, will make me injure myself??? I thought she wanted me to not do that. Fuck her. I hope she realized that when I stormed out of the office crying, that I was never, ever coming back.

I was literally in her office, grinding my teeth, trying so hard NOT TO EXPLODE into rage and throw a fucking chair at her.

my parents are trying to FORCE me to go back.
if they do, she is going to get a piece of my mind.

I used to love her.

now I hope she dies.
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Community [14 Aug 2007|10:26am]

While reading this community, I noticed that there are many loving and caring people who have been hurt badly in so many different ways. There are many ways that help is available, and I'm hoping that my community can ease some of your demons.

It doesn't say in the userinfo page that I cannot do this, so here I go and I am terribly sorry if this offends anyone. And if it does, the mod can delete this entry immediately. I created a community a while ago called attemptfailed: for people who have attempted suicide. It is not a pro- suicide community, but it is one for people to tell their stories, get advice, find people to relate to, etc.

There is much more about it on our userinfo page, but I thought I'd give a little introduction to the community in case anyone out there is interested. Take care everyone.

X~Posted, please leave comments on 1st entry of attemptfailed if you have any questions
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Autism [09 Aug 2007|04:23pm]


Hello, I found this community while I was searching for some information on Autism. My godson is autistic and it has been a very interesting journey since he was born.

I wanted to share this article I wrote about Autism (Autism: Staggering Statistics) and to ask if anyone knew of any communities dedicated to autism on LJ? Thanks for your help!

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OCD [09 Aug 2007|01:20pm]

[ mood | anxious ]

Hello, all-

I am a filmmaker with my own series of disorders (compulsive disorders, eating disorders) who is now making a film based on a girl with OCD. We will be creating more of her inner workings with the film than just setting on a plot/story line. So far, the idea is that my main is obsessed with counting... everything's come on me rather quick, so I don't have a lot to offer.

My concern is - I will be submitting this to many festivals - and I don't want to misrepresent or stereotype OCD in any fashion. If anybody has a compulsive disorder and would like to answer a few questions and give me a short synopsis of their life, I would be beyond thankful. You would be playing a major role in helping us in our process and also opening eyes to being trapped in certain disorders.

Give me a shout back so we can be in contact! Thank you!!!

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[09 Aug 2007|11:46am]

I have a habit of rocking back and forth on my bed or in a chair. During that time I space out and use my vivid imagination. I often do that while listening to music or watching TV. But that has taken over my life. It seems that I can't function without rocking now and then and it wastes my time. I also am an internet addict. I spend hours a day online and it is hard for me to get anything done. During college I hardly studied because I was often rocking on my bed in my dorm room or going online for frivolous reasons. I graduated with a 3.1 anyways. I am very smart, but I can't seem to be able to manage my time well.
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[31 Jul 2007|04:10pm]

Photo Sharing and Video Hosting at Photobucket

Mods: if this is not allowed, feel free to remove this post.
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Lexapro+Adderall=...? [10 Jul 2007|12:26am]

I'm on 30mg Lexapro that I take in the mornings. Would it be okay to take adderall during the day after taking it? I wouldn't take it together, of course.

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ADHD [06 Jul 2007|06:04am]

I found out that many people that are gifted have ADHD, and that giftedness can seem like ADHD. Interesting.
I have a brain that doesn't shut off. I have racing thoughts, hyperactivity, times when I talk excessively, withdrawal at times, and severe distractability.

While in Kindergarten I could already read, count to 100 and higher, etc. During first and second grade I could read chapter books, look things up in an encyclopedia or dictionary, identify wild plants (the teacher had taught us lots about that), write stories, and recite the 50 states of the USA, their capitals, locate them on a map as well as many countries, and name all the presidents from George Washington to Ronald Reagan. I went to a Christian school so I learned the Beautitudes, Ten Commandments (word for word), and the 23rd Psalm.
Yet during those years I cried easily, was often withdrawn, had lots of anxiety, and I rarely smiled. I was the target of many bullies.

In high school I had nearly all As and Bs, I got a few Cs and only one D- just before graduation. I just never tried very hard and still made the National Honor Society. I also had 6 college classes completed.

In college I goofed off. I graduated, but I feel that I could have done better. I should have also majored in something better than what I did. I want to go to graduate school, but I would need better grades.

I really regret my procrastination and underachievement.

One main problem I have is my constant need for stimulation. I am always rocking back and forth, on my bed at night or during the day. I like sitting in a rocking chair. That's how autistic people act. I wasted so much time in college just rocking and listenitng to music when I could have been studying. I had no control over it. I feel so weird and won't talk to people about it.

I have been fired twice. The last time was in South Korea where I taught English. I had a hard time understanding what I was supposed to do at first. I had some episodes of high confusion. I also couldn't concentrate or be organized easily. I felt that I was losing it.

I want to go back to college, get better grades this time (my GPA is 3.0, but graduate schools like 3.3+), and stop my constant rocking and procrastination.

I do wonder if I have ADHD or not. I also have heard that ADHD is sometimes considered to be part of the autism spectrum. Stimming is autistic behavior.
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